He who loves his life will lose it, and he who loses his life will gain it back again. Seems that what Jesus said millennia ago still holds true, Jonas! Perhaps we need to sleep to surrender our ego and then awaken to a new life, without the ego. The soul and ego were never meant to coexist peacefully together. Surrender to regain, supposedly be defeated in order to win…seems like an upside-down situation. Or maybe our world was meant to be upside-down all this while?:)